5 points for moi

Ok, so...just to clear things up, since when has it been ok to use the excuse of a death in the family to worm out of meeting an old friend? My ex pal did that. It was a blow to me when I caught on to it. I'm torn now, between wanting to expose her for the liar she is, and no longer dealing with her at all. I guess the best thing to do is to leave it alone. Walk away, and live my life. But like a wound, open and vulnerable, I can't stop picking at it. I want my moment of unmasking the lying cunt. I want that "Aha!" moment. But it feels like I'm compromising my principles to attain it. In the midst of the "big picture" she was never an important component at all. More like an smudge of paint in some obscure subject of the picture. A very distant and distorted subject. Why should she matter now, after 3 years? It's probably more of an ego thing than I'd like to admit. Why doesn't she want to hang with me? After 6 years, I'm only worth a horrible lie to her? Why can't we have drinks and eat rich foods and be young adults together? Laughing and joking, tossing back our heads, rounding our mouths and squinting our eyes shut with flirtatious, hilarious joy. I guess when you socialize with children, the reprocussions are of a child-like nature.

If I come away with nothing more it's that ^see above^. You can't dress a whore in Versace and call her a lady. You can't put an olive is Sprite and call it a martini. And you can't drudge through the emotional problems of an attention starved, lifeless, couch potato and come out with a friend. I'm a little hurt about all this after wasting my precious time listening to her moan and bitch about wanting a life like an air headed socialite (will refrain from using names). The worming out of a meeting is something I should have done. But as I said, here's the obvious inability to leave well enough alone and allow nature to take it's wonderous and sometimes frightening course on this one.

Anyone else want to discard their shackles? Shackle dispenser here>>> I__I