Travel, my darling, travel

I make reference to two different vehicles in that one subject: education and my 94 Ford Taurus. The latter has been out of my possession for the past two days. I dropped her at the local mechanic's shop in hopes of getting some answers. Why does it feel like I could lose control at any moment when I'm on a bumpy patch of road? Why does she drift to the right if I release the wheel for a second? For my two days of trouble and circumventing my immobility by driving with my Sonny, what do I get? No answers, that's what! He can't figure out what's wrong with it, that mechanic, but he feels what I feel and knows what I mean. It's a casual, buttery shudder that makes me plank-stiff when I drive . I sense that it's getting worse, although I could just be more and more sensitive to it. I don't know what to do at this point. It's the winter slush that worries me. This car is ready to skid on dry pavement. Imagine bad weather.

Education. Yesterday, I felt strange. Almost... Stupid. It was the craziest thing. My brain has been rotting since I got here. I used to read a ton of books (when I rode the subway) and I visited MoMA when they had those free Fridays sponsored by Target. I wasn't refined, but I had sense that my mind was like a sponge in water: expanding and absorbing things. That isn't the case here. My heart has slightly softened to the town and I realize that you can't get blood from a turnip. Lorain is what it is and nothing I say and or do will change that. Anyway, what can you do when all of a sudden you feel stupid without any warning or true cause? I hopped on the internet and searched for some area schools. Why not? LCCC doesn't have any courses I want, but CSU (Cleveland State University) does. They even have weekend and evening classes. It felt good to get the old gears grinding again. Applying some oil to one particularly squeaky spring, I scheduled a Saturday tour of the campus. Sonny will be there, supportive and protective as usual. God, I love him. As brainless as I feel, I'm smart enough to know I probably wouldn't exist right now if not for my Sonny Boy. Love rocks :)