Show up, Slim down

I was yaking with Sonny this morning and I made a joke about how the cats were constantly underfoot. I said, "This is how it'll be to have children? I might as well become a giant and move to a village."

He said, "You already live in a village."

I responded, "Yes, but I'm not a giant. I'm petite, in fact."

This made Sonny chuckle. I marched over to his side of the room and tugged on his shoulder, "What?" I said.

"You were petite when I met you."

"Do you know what 'petite' means? It means short. I am short, Sonny!"

I don't know exactly why but this exchange put me in a somber mood this morning. It made me want to force Sonny's words down his own throat. Of course in order to do that I've got to lose some weight. I've managed to lose about 10 pounds and now it seems I'm capped out. I'm going to need a huge push to get my waist line to continue shrinking. I eat three times a day, and I've heard it's best to eat 5 small meals. But my thing is this: I want a sustainable weight loss plan. I don't want something that is good and functional until I step out with some pepperoni pizza or flirt with a hunk of chocolate cake. Life happens. Sometimes that damn cake is unavoidable. How can you be human and not enjoy a good slice of cake with a tall cold glass of moo juice? I need something that will modify my eating habits, make them better and yet allow me the real-life flexibility that anorexia or fad diets can not. And of course, I need to figure out a good gym routine to blast my gut, arms, thighs and other cellulite riddled parts of my anatomy.

Am I asking too much? Maybe. But I figure with the massive weight loss I got doing the Curves diet last year and the muscle tone I gained by doing Sonny's intensive gym workout at our old gym... I should be able to patch together something that will fit my needs and goals. I was doing a food diary online for awhile. I was amazed to learn that I intake about 1800 calories a day on average. 2000 on the weekends and/or if I attend a party with appetizers and drinks in consistent supply. My doctor suggested I exercise every day for 30 minutes and drop my intake to about 1200 calories a day. Is that possible? I haven't been able to do it yet. If I eat a sandwich, there goes 400 calories. *sigh* I'm talking myself out of a wonderful goal. I've got to keep going with this. See where it leads and if I can succeed. Why not?